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Her story

本文发表在 rolia.net 枫下论坛25 yrs ago, she’s a pretty girl, graduated from a famous university majored in computer. After joining work for just one year, she’s assigned to Swiss for training for one year. He’s a handsome man with no post secondary education, had a decent job but no real potential.

She felt love with him and got married, though her parents warned her to think over the decision. Marriage life was not as great as she hoped. She started to doubt if such life was what she really wanted.

She decided to go study abroad alone. She went to Europe. Like most of the Chinese overseas students at that time, she had to work like crazy to earn each $ for study and life. Even so she still enjoyed the beautiful European culture and simple life there, of course, there were some romances as well.

She still guaranteed her husband out to Belgium. But their lives could no longer on the same track. 1 yr later, she immigrated to Canada and also brought him along. And then they got divorced.

She married again and this time with a local Canadian who’s 13 yrs older than her. Unfortunately she chose the wrong man again. He’s a typical loser if you call it, with no money, not even a stable job. He changes job 2-3 times a year and never tells her how much he earns. By this age he’s still never owned a property as no bank would be willing to lend money due to his poor credit history.

In Canada she’s not in the field of computer any more, she’s a massage therapist, making about 35k a year. She never had a child, from both marriages, even she would die for one.

Do you think her life is a tragedy? You know what, she’s one of the most attractive women I’ve met. She’s graceful, calm, loving, energetic, still in good shape and active in many social groups. She loves yoga, travelling, cooking, gardening and anything brings inspiration and beauty. She’s still a good friend to her ex and his current wife.

Her life is not perfect, as she’s still with this 2nd husband who she has no trust in. She has a lot to deal with, but she’s far from depression or anything like that. Quitting life? Life has so much to offer, more than you can imagine. Just see how you seize your day.

Wish her story could be of some inspiration to you. Good luck.更多精彩文章及讨论,请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net
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  • 枫下家园 / 幸福家庭 / Her story
    • hope next time, she will be smarter at choosing. :-)
      • I hope so too. She deserves a great man.
    • 好故事。不过我不得不说是主人公看人的眼光有问题,才两次选错人。我猜她是太过浪漫了。
    • Thank you, afternoon tea.
      I havn't being on Rolia for a few days. It's not because the depression is gone, but i'm afraid of digging things up. I'm still in bad mood and of two minds. sometimes I want to have things completely discussed here; sometimes I wonder how huch it would help. Not everybody is comprehensive; some people can be very judgemental.

      However, I am so thankful for you caring, thank you so much for sharing the story. And thanks to those who supported and comforted me in my previous post.
    • 我看到的是“生活在于自己把握!”因为主人公是一个经济上/社会上/心理上[此点最为重要]独立的女性,所以她的生活不会被她不幸的婚姻所遮蔽.虽然选人的眼光不准,但那是另一个问题.
    • Sounds like Melanie in the "Gone With The Wind". May I have her number pls? :)
      • I need to ask her. If you want pls pm me.
    • by the way, I love the song too.
    • 朋友们的关心让我感动,我还是把自己的情况讲出来吧,希望能够得到一些帮助。
      本文发表在 rolia.net 枫下论坛我前夫把着小孩,不让我进入孩子的生活,以前在国内,看不到小孩,打不到电话,孩子的任何消息从不给我知道。现在出国了,前两年也是一个电话也打不到,他非常极端,造成我无尽的痛苦。

      其实这种抑郁已经很多年了。没结婚时他限制我的个性、社交,他妈很强悍,也很霸道无礼,他父亲甚至要求我不做与异性打交道的工作,我的家人也不被他们尊重,而他所做的就是对我不断的指责。我那时自信心全无,非常绝望,不得已离婚。他非常恨我提出离婚,这些年一直与我不共戴天。

      我承认当时放弃小孩很蠢,不过局外人很难想象当时我的心理状况,那时就已经快撑不住了,他和他家,对于我象一个冰窟,自己家人抱成一团,互相护着,真难以想象再继续在他家生活下去会是什么样子,当时就经常把一句话在心里翻来复去讲十几遍,其实已经是忧郁症状。我那时也想要小孩,但是他很坚决,只有答应小孩给他,他才同意离婚。以当时跟他家那种激烈的冲突,真的怕自己要疯掉,只求能逃离他一家人。

      这些年,每一次试图接近小孩一次,就受伤一次,每一次都会让我非常难受,难以成眠。快十年了,一次一次地,我的精神已经快给掏空了。

      我结婚了,先生还挺好,体贴我。但是我不能一次次地把他也拉入那种无望的境地中。我的情绪已经有一些影响他。很多时候只能自己忍着。有时候夜里睡不着,脑子里翻来复去的那些念头赶也赶不走,我忍不住叫他一声,他一直以为我是梦里柔情,其实我是实在难以承受了,但我又不能把他叫醒,对他说,我多么多么难过,为EX。

      就象前面一位朋友说的,抑郁就象一种玩疾,会不断再回来。我终归是有些理智的,有时自己挺一挺,又过去了。但是这种发作间隔越来越短,我现在差不多就处于两种状态:不发作的时候,心里是无尽的空虚、自我否定;发作的时候,强烈的愤懑怨尢无从发泄,要把我的脑子都烧坏了。

      我觉得活着真的没有意义。我这一辈子,母亲的称号对于我来讲是空的,我控制不了自己的生活,所以才会一而再、再而三地受制于人。可怜之人必有可恨之处,是我自己太软弱会把生活过得这样被动,我为自己感到羞耻。

      我羡慕那些有生活热情的人。看到别人能兴兴头头地计划去哪里玩,我为自己感到悲哀。我曾经坚定地认为一旦儿子跟我在一起,我会做一个非常好的,心态健康尽责的妈妈,但是现在我怀疑,即使儿子来了,我会不会做好?一件小小的不如意,我都觉得是我的failure, 我感觉自己似乎已经废了。

      经常地,我觉得内心有一种anger,有时坐在车上,莫名的怒气就会升上来,我怪叫几声,老公以为我又在耍宝,其实我真的是无处发泄。我怨恨EX,但我拿他没有任何办法。我又不能杀了他。不管我跟他讲情说理,求他,骂他,他没有改变。我心里,象有一堆火在熊熊燃烧,但只是闷燃,要熏坏我自己。

      我知道我被摧残的母性情感需要一个孩子来治疗,但是一再抱着能再与我儿子生活在一起的幻想,而打消要孩子的计划;别外老公也觉得他年纪不小了,不再想要小孩。我也再振作不到要小孩的那种平静的心态。

      在夜里,我不断地对自己说,救救我,救救我,但是白天醒来,理智回来,一切都还算正常。有时跟同学或朋友在一起,虽然我在不停地说话,其实别人讲什么我根本听不进去,我的脑子仿佛被什么driven,而心里却不断地在往下掉,掉。。我有时觉得自己需要一位心理医生,但是老公觉得我是我自己把问题放大了。

      最近疲劳的感觉越来越重,前段时间考试,看书完全集中不了精神,脑子里满满的,心里气促,发紧,出汗,这是以前没有的。情绪不好,有时也难免发到老公身上,我真的不想再把现在的生活过得一团糟。

      我知道大家成年人都有很多压力,但是有没有人象我这样,我有时觉得自己真的到了一个edge,自己扛着好辛苦啊!希望能够听到大家的建议,怎么可以振作起来,克服这可怕的抑郁。

      大家不要追问过去的事了,真的不想再去细说从前的事,就说说该怎样克服抑郁吧,我真的需要帮助。更多精彩文章及讨论,请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net
      • 挺同情的。说服说服老公,看看能不能要一个吧。男人年龄大点没关系。还有,如果那个孩子现在过的也幸福,祝福他永远幸福,也是你目前作为亲生母亲能做的最好的事了。
        • 他说孩子还好,上私立学校。但是谁知道真好还是假好。以前他给孩子找了个后妈,说孩子过得很好,结果两人又离了,现在又说孩子那时很不快乐。
          我现在被允许一周给孩子打一次电话,但只能打EX的手机,所以小孩就只能在他面前接电话,这样小孩根本就不敢讲。他坚持不给我他家里电话,还说this is my life,非常郁闷,我按他要求的一年给一万块,一个电话都不给?而且小孩的情况还是不告诉我。非常接受不了他这种做法。
          • 关心的问一下,你可以和孩子见面吗?
            • 见不到,孩子在国内。就是以前在国内,也不给见。
              • 你前夫就不是个儿东西。什么狗屁男人。你要是回国能不能见孩子一面?我觉得你前夫就是故意拿孩子要你不快活。你应该坚强一些,把你的帖子保存下来,给你的孩子写信存起来。孩子有大的时候,血缘关系是无法割舍的,等他大了,他会理解你并且爱你的。
                你现在最重要的是注意你自己的身体,快乐起来。

                去图书馆借一本John Irving 的书,“untill I find u". 你会明白的。

                书中男主角Jack从小被妈妈带离爸爸,他妈妈从来不允许他爸爸接近他,也不告诉他他爸爸一直在寻找他,出钱让他上大学和上私校。Jack成年后,自己到北欧找寻他的爸爸。

                你好好儿读读吧,会有帮助的。
                • 谢谢。我会去找来读的。我就是觉得他把孩子控制得太好了,
                  孩子做任何事都先想到他会不会同意,对于我,也许孩子内心有情感需要,但也是压抑的,不能在他们面前展现的。而且这些年来他们对我的所做所为,也影响了孩子对我的感情和我的威信,我深深觉得我在孩子那里的地位,被他们削除得快没有了,孩子估计将来对我也没有什么感情。
                  • 千万别这样想,孩子一定会对你有感情的,一定的。
          • 你们之间有离婚协议吗?去找找一些机构咨询一下呢?如果打官司,你好像是挺有理的,但是耗时耗财并不值得。同时,做些其他事转移一下注意力,感觉你有点钻牛角尖了,对你自己和老公会有影响。尽人事,顺天意!
      • 很是同情你。我想,
        要么, 你在要个孩子,两个孩子真不多,如果你的孩子在他爹那里过的好的话。 这么多年了,真要接来和你一起生活, 可能也不容易。而且,你有在婚了。

        和你的现老公谈谈,如果他不愿意再要孩子,是否愿意和你一起努力把自己孩子,并一起抚养? 他如果真爱你,应该给你一个选择,要么样自己的孩子,要么和你养以前的孩子。
        • 我猜前夫也拿不定主意,为小孩前途着想,想放,但感情上又不愿放。
          前两年僵着,现在我满足他条件,才可以打一次电话。我还不能太push,要是他一发狠,又是一个音信全无,又掐掉我跟小孩的联系。但是我这样赔着小心好累,想不通,精神上负担好重。有一次他说等小孩初中毕业再过来,那时小孩那么大了,我这一辈子也完了。想着我这样茫茫然地过下去,心里那个无望和堵。
      • 可以的话,你应该去看看心理医生.这样继续下去,你会陷入崩溃. 而且现在你无法传递到一个健康爱护的心态给你孩子, 恐怕会另他/她收到伤害.最重要的是要爱你自己,修补心灵疮疤,找个恰当的途径将感情发泄出来,放下所背负的重担.
        加拿大是法治社会,如果你前夫以此要挟你,完全可以找律师.一般情况,法官会让你和孩子每 星期/月 独立相处一次. 折磨自己完全解决不了问题,只会离孩子越来越远. 给个参考,希望有所启示:http://blog.sina.com.cn/wuzii .
        • 最无望就是孩子在国内。前夫一会儿有一点松动的样子,一会儿改口。去年我说要接孩子来,要我把住的房子照片拍给他看,我老公做什么,收入多少,都要报给他,他要“评估”,实在太过份了。
        • 找到了blog,看起来有很多启迪性的东西,回头好好读。
      • 赶紧看心理医生吧,这样的精神状态,也许是忧郁症,需要治疗。
      • Read your story. It’s so sad…. if I were you I might fall in the same trap and never know how to get out.
        本文发表在 rolia.net 枫下论坛I think first you need to go see a psychologist.
        You might not like what I will say next… I think the hatred you have with your evil ex influences too much, on every aspect of your life. Though you are lucky enough to have a loving husband, your heart is so full of anger and hatred you are not able to enjoy his love and your life.

        Such hatred brings bad effect when you deal with your son, during those limited calls you are allowed to phone him. (My god, what an ex you have! ) Remember, although your ex hates you, he loves the child. When you speak to your son, tell him both his parents love him.

        Most important, you must love yourself. If you do not, nobody will love you, including your dear son. You married this wrong guy before, so what? who’ve never made a mistake, here or there? And you still have a son who knows you love him. Even if he doesn’t feel it now, he’ll know when he grows up.

        Also in your divorce paper, did you give up the right to freely speak to and see your son? If not you can consider hiring a lawyer to get you the right back. Just do not give yourself up. Try to fight and try to go on.更多精彩文章及讨论,请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net